Pervasive silence fills the air, deafening despite the lack of noise. It seems to press down on me, trying to push me into thoughts I do not want to think. Thoughts of complete quiet, of sterile white and painful black. And there is a woman there, in these thoughts of mine, dressed in that same too bright white and a too cheerful smile on her face. She tells me it’s time to go. That the doctor is expecting me, but all I do is back away. I don’t trust her. And as she cautiously draws closer, acting as though I am a rabid animal, not a human being, I know. I know that to here I am just that. I’m not a human. To her I am an ani